by Tosin Beckley, Employment First Officer – GRoW Programme
As the weeks go by I feel that I am starting to feel a little bit out of it. I almost want to scream at the top of my lungs just to shake off the frustration that is starting to build up inside me….
I just sometimes wonder if i didn’t have my nuclear family around me and if I was actually living alone (and I mean all by myself), how on earth would i cope????
I wish I could be a fly on the wall just to check on how people are living during these uncertain times, what could they be going through and what would be running through their minds?
Would I be able to cope at all if i was living by myself???
I have to be honest with myself, this lockdown is really starting to affect me emotionally, mentally and physically – I feel like my head is all over the place and there is nothing I can do about it….
I am thankful and grateful to be working and to be able to work from home however the feeling of no motivation or drive creeps in and I do ‘allow’ it to take complete control over me which is not good but at the same time I know I can beat it……having positive thoughts is definitely a good thing but when the negative comes in to play i ask why does it have such a strong hold on me or other people out there???
Gosh, I really miss going out, I miss socialising, obviously I miss my family and my close friends but I just miss the high street of Ealing, Uxbridge, Hayes!